rambles

Everything that we do as humans has its motivation, whether it's conscious or unconscious. I feel that I've been trying to accept my weight. Bear in mind that accepting it is not the same as being happy with it.  Nevertheless, I just can't accept that this is who I am at the moment and it's making me face some of my inner demons. Trite phrase, but its true. I know that I eat for comfort. I know that it's a lot easier to order out (ugh, don't get me started) instead of gathering the energy to cook.


Tonight I realized that I am a food addict. As someone in the mental health field, I was kinda weary of when people would use this as a reason to explain their weight gain and/or spending habits. I'm acting like a lot of people with a 'traditional' addiction. I'm lying to those around me about the extent of the problem, I get a rush when I'm around my addiction and mainly, it's a substitute for what's missing in my life. I've been really unhappy with a lot of things and food makes it better. Temporarily, at least. In the next few weeks, I will be making upcoming changes to myself as a whole that will help me feel better, both inside and out.


Next entry will be soon :)
xxxo

day one.

I've been talking about doing this for a long time now. I finally decided to do it so that I could hold myself accountable for my actions. I have a lot of demons from my past and I feel that I'm introspective enough to  realize how those are related to my weight gain. I'm not trying to re-invent the wheel in terms of my blogging, but I hope that I can inspire someone to do something about their weight. I'm not happy with the nearly 20 lbs I've gained in the last two years, so I'm going to do something about it.In short, this blog will be about my struggle/journey/whatever you want to call it to losing weight. 

A bit about myself: I'm 24. Recent graduate from an M.A program. Engaged. Active sorority alumna. Speaks in southern accent when upset. Lover of shoes and anything that sparkles.

More to come tomorrow.

xxxo